Okay, so I really don't feel sorry for what I blogged about the situation with my former pastor, but in hind site I could have been more generous in spirit. He was someone I really really admired and loved. He didn't just have an affair on his wife, he left her and didn't pay child support for a time period (he currently does), and some other very nasty, cruel things he did that I would never have imagined he would do. It is terribly difficult to reconcile the man I thought I knew with the way he is living now. Such a wonderful person that I wish everyone could have known, but he is not that person anymore. There is so much more to this than can be described. Burton Avenue was my family; for me there has never been a community of people who I collectively loved more. He was a really big part of that for me. I still have contact with Candy and the choices he made have made extreme negative impacts on her, but I know God will work it out for His glory. I hate it when people I love get divorced its a wicked rupture of life. I hate it. I hate it even more when the pain is so intense for one of the people and he/she still loves the other person while the other person selfishly moves on and pretends it "just happend". I hate seeing people I love suffer.