WE DID NOT get sick with this batch of cheese. Nothing; I ate huge amounts so if I was going to get sick it would have happened. One large batch separarted into two spice groups-one traditional the other some lime thing (which I love lime but) the lime was weird. I love the traditional. We have a list of spices we wish to try.
later must work now
Jennifer

I HATE this! I'm cruising along having a totally fab day and WHAM a yucky thought slams into my head. I push it away, but my heart is hurt. Doing so much better than before MUCH better. By God's grace and wonderous love I'm getting there. Assurance from Frank is truly a God send. I'm finding out just how much my family and in-law family and friends love me, but its so hard unless s/he has been there themselves. I'm learning so much abt grace which makes me realize how much I "owe" God. I can never repay what I owe him. Love runs so much deeper than I ever imagined; I am so thankful that love is so Powerful. It is so cohesive. I am grateful for lessons learned but wish they could have come about a much different way. So too bad for me; no? Others have been through so much worse!! So far, my story has a very, very Happy ending. Other reminders may come soon so I covet your prayers. Satan knows how to set us up; no?

My little international Bridget- I got your message, but don't know for sure how to call you back. I'm terribly SORRY I missed your call. A weird sequence of 7's appeared on my cell phone call list. Jewel says please say hello to Jessica; its weird but she remembers her.

Last night, I had a "ladies only" party. We laughed until we cried. I was so glad that at the last moment Katie could come; it was a joy to have you there. Thanks Frank for taking the kids out and setting up the treat table.

Frankie and I made another batch of homemade cheese; we tried a new spice. We are also working on benches for our even this weekend; much fun I say. Jewel is coming with us to coronation-we are so PUMPED. It will be cold, but my Russian bear will keep me warm :)

Frank and I have been working on our yard, it needs love let me tell ya.

Okay, my break is over.

Smiles,
Jennifer

Super busy week. Today has been MUCH better. Last night, Frank and I got to go for a walk in the gorgeous fall like weather this had a POWERFUL IMPACT on decreasing my anxiety. I rambled on, he held my hand, let me ramble some more and then he talked and then we talked about fun stuff. I'm so glad we are forcing ourselves to find time to do fun things. I have been in mommy sacrifice mode for many years now and although to an extend that is what moms need to do sometimes I was carrying it to an extreme at the expense of my marriage and my own mental health. Our entire family made changes over the summer and by God's grace we will stick with them.
Jewel and I are beyond excited for coronation. It will be my 2nd weekend long event and Jewel's 1st. Cannon will spend the weekend with a friend and Sunday with G&G H. It is nice to get away from electronics, be outside, see our SCA friends (yes i have some now too :) ) and learn things. I had a moment of panic today when I thought it is so nice to have a group of friends like this we've had this before with.. church friends., well then they would move away or leave the church or some petty little fight would start and then .. nothing and then we held on trying to fix or whatever until things got so bad we were miserable but didn't want to leave because there are still people there you care about and it is your "church" family with eternal ties. But then I thought. I cannot do this to myself and Frank. I don't see this happening with our SCA group (not that I did with certain church groups either) but if it does we will find a new group of friends or hobby or whatever. I need to enjoy now. the time away from the house and busy society, the time with Frankie, the time with my children, the time OUTSIDE, the time with my new friends and the time learning new things.. speaking of learning new things.

Frank, the kids and I made CHEESE this past weekend. Yes, that's correct CHEESE from scratch. I got to be in charge of stirring and watching the temp of the mixture until it heated up to 180, etc. It tasted FABULOUS!!!!!!!! we all had such fun. The only downside is I got sick to my tummy (which due to other issues in not unusual for me) but then Frankie did later so.. (Jewel also did not feel well, but on Friday before we made the cheese and she really didn't eat much of it so...).. was it a bad recipe? did we catch something from Jewel? did we make it incorrectly? was it the bacon Frank ate bad? hum... It was SO yummy and fun to make I hope it wasn't the recipe or us. We are going to be brave and try to make it again.

better go work is busy

Smiles!

Jennifer